i know i still have so much to post in my blog, but right now, there's something inside me that i just want to get out of my system... i've been hiding it for weeks, but it's been building up to a point where i can't take it anymore...
i'm sorry, but right now i'm missing you a lot... i miss the times when we chat or talk over the phone every night... i miss those times when i can't help but think of you and care for you... i miss loving you...
there're a lot of things going on in my mind recently: are we going to meet in person someday? will we be able to talk again one day? how have you been doing ever since we went our seperate ways? will we ever restore our friendship again?
i'm still in shock over what happened to us on that day... i know what happened was entirely my fault, and i apologize for hurting you for the nth time... i'm sure that even your friends have hated me because of what happened... and probably they're laughing at me right now while they're reading this...
i've replied to the last email that you sent me, but i haven't gotten any replies... i tried calling you up and even sent you a text message even while i was on my vacation with my friends, but no answer...
i've already made my plans for the future with you in the center of it... i was hoping we could live in or nearby your state where you 're living right now... i was really looking forward to seeing you here in the philippines months from now, that's why i extended my stay here... i'm sorry if i wasn't able to go there last year... i really wanted to, just so you know...
i'm still hoping that we could somehow work things out... that you'd eventually forgive me for all the things that i've done... i hope that one day you'll take me back into your life... i know i've lost you, and i hope i could win you back...
sometimes, i think about what you said... i had to set you free so you could
move on.... kasi i want you to be happy. i really do... how am i supposed to be happy when you're the one that makes me happy? that you make me smile everytime even if there were times that i was down or i am mad...
anyways, i'm really sorry for everything... i still love you though, and that won't ever change...
